wendylbolm

I want to be John Waters when I grow up

In Art, The Writing Life on September 4, 2010 at 3:58 am

Sometimes I wish I was John Waters. I enjoy his wit and fierce sense of irony.

John Waters makes the movies I would love to make (or live), but I lack the courage. In his new autobiography, Role Models, he writes that LSD gave him the courage to make his movies.

It’s strange to think my general abstinence from drinking and drugs and negatively impacted my creative process.

I have problems trusting myself. This fear manifests in ways that are annoying. Like, my hair, makeup, and clothes are never good enough for me, because I feel strange candy-gothing myself up as a 28-year-old trying to enter the professional world.

I hold back in my stories, because I’m afraid of what people will think.

Some of my friends might not believe this, but I’m afraid to take risks. This bothers me.

If one day I woke up and found out I was living John Waters’s life, I would be happy.

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